to my niu niu:

you make me feel real. and i felt my existence
in this world. you make me feel worthy whenever
i try to undermine my worth.

i wonder if you notice, i was staring at you whenever
you were busy doing something for me. you were
packing my stuff whenever i threw everything on the
ground,tissues, clothing, all the stuff i happily kick to
the floor so i could sleep, you were making a hot drink
for me whenever i feel cold, you will warm my hands and
help me put on socks and jacket and rub ointment on
my stomach. i'm constantly falling sick in the night due
to my very poor digestion problem. i am so ma fan that
whenever
we go out, i'm always unwell becos i just would not
resist the temptations and start snacking away at junks.
you couldnt stop me cos you want to pamper me to the
food i like. i know you would get me anything i like,
do anything that i love just becos u care for me too much.
only you would care for me like no other ppl would do.
i couldnt sleep and wake u up at night even when u were
so tired that u really feel slapping me and ask me to stop
waking u up in the middle of the night. but u will still
wake up and pay so much attention to me.
even when i look like shit, you make me laugh at my
own sillyness, you never make me feel uncomfortable
when i wear my specs , ugly clothing, bulging belly,
scratching my hair, even when i look my worst,
you make me feel pretty from the way u look at me.
i do not need to pretend. becos i know i'm in your heart.

i feel so comforted to have you. and you have to leave
for ns soon. i''ll have to be independent becos you wont
be there to protect and care for me. wont be there
to hug me when i'm bullied. wont be there when i feel
i have alot of problems that i carry so heavily on my shoulders.
but you will be there in my heart i promise.
and i will be strong becos i know you are with me.
thanks. i love you. and i so happy that our trip
is well spend. i'm so happy we did have quality
time together. i'm so happy that we are together.

yours truly,
duck duck